and address of the preceeding

I’m not great at ‘journaling’ as so many of my peers are.  The preceeding 4 posts were in my saved draft folder.  At one time or another I intended to revisit, revise and complete them all… but that intention never found fruition.  <–( Totally just used that word to have it be used. )  So there they are, whatever they are, and they’re never to be completed.  -or are they ultimately supposed to be that way?

a lost thought pt. IV -”a way from what came before”

The present reality of things, as always, lacks meaning without history and without direction (a set course or future). Indeed, why would the now matter if everything blipped into existence and then out again in a moment of time; without context, without reasoning? So I’m thinking: understanding the history of where everything comes from is important for my life in the now; even though I could, as much of America does, simply take things as they are and work with them in order to further my gains and fancies of the moment. But understanding where things have come from, and, often in so knowing, understanding why they are just the way they are, brings light to their future purposes and their value or worthlessness now. Life is so much more enjoyable and adventuresome when everything has purpose and meaning and significance and either helps to shape your character or gives indication of where your character lays now so that you may evaluate it. All of this shapes your culture and relies on the past culture that directly influences the now. Cultures all over the world have been shaped by their past culture, and that’s not to say their past generations didn’t make changes, but it would be naive to think that one could escape such influence: as if this generation can be so much different; the influence continues regardless of personal preference or desire to be ‘different’. I think such desires are foolish in a way: thinking that you can change who your people have made you to be. No, it takes more than determination and one’s own will to change who you are. It takes a total overhaul of the self and the spirit of a man to overcome his past culture, if his past culture is in need of overcoming, that is (in part or in whole).  -Only God can do that.

but then take the history of an individual life and you have an entirely different perspective and system of thought, hopes, dreams, schemes.

a lost thought pt. III -”part II”

The universe, from macro to micro, is comprised of countless interdependent parts that all work together in it’s present function. Humans are the only ones out of line. We don’t seek to operate in the order of all things; we withdraw, and we destroy; both what is around us, and ourselves.  We don’t want to work in harmony with God’s world in God’s way, we want to do things our own way and so we fall out of order.

a lost thought pt.II -”worlds apart, part I”

In a conversation with my mother about the world, falsehood of other religions, and the way things should be, somehow I got the idea to describe two worlds in which mankind can live and function. By our nature, as seen in the bible and by common sense and logic, we live in one of them, and the other, is a vision of a perfect world which can be completely toppled and broken by one selfish person.

I think it started out as me enumerating all the different facts I had recently learned about Mormonism and discussing how I couldn’t see the way it made any sense to anybody apart from completely blind faith; no hard facts, no physical/historical evidence, false historical accounts, etc.  -Another post for another time, but that’s how it started.

Eventually, we moved into Christianity and it’s accounts of history, and then somehow into human nature, which I tied back into the kind of people Christians are becoming ultimately; though my thought process, which I will try to lay out, follows an extreme idea/thought-flow that is more meant to illustrate a point rather than lay out God’s plan of redemption.  So there’s my disclaimer, and now comes the idea:

There are two possible ways of mankind living on this earth: either with every man for himself, or every man for the other man; any mixture of the two results in destruction.

Two Worlds

“The world in which we, as a species, physically survive must necessarily rely on one thing: mans’ service to mans’ self.  Where ever you find a man serving another man before the self, there you will find a deity, for no other nature than a deity can afford such reckless abandon of needs.”

a lost thought pt.I

I have to wonder, sometimes, if I’m not a simpler creature than a modern mind would give me credit for being. Hampster. Alone. Heartache. Sister.